Hi! I noticed your powerful prayer and your strong desire to be all God wants you to be. There is one thing that God can free you from and thats freedom from the lies of Christmas and birthdays. In this ministry God gave us the truth about all holidays and birthdays. We do not celebrate them because it's not mentioned in the word of God and is not commanded by God. If you reviewed the history of Christmas (and all holidays), you will see they were intended for other gods. We have plenty of literature on holidays that completely go against the word of our God. If you would like more info, just let me know. I can send them to you or guide you to them on this site. Spiritually, these days shouldn't be celebrated and naturally, you can actually save and keep your money. No more spending on gifts. Praise God I am free of these days that are not meant to serve the true & living Jesus Christ! Love you and may God continue to be number one in your life!