Greetings and Blessings in the name of The Lord Jesus Christ. My prayers are with you pastor as you strive to do the will of the Lord our God. I know many pastors go through these times and the weight become so heavy upon the heart and shoulders of pastors. This also the reason why Jesus gave us Apostles to cover the Pastors. you should seek out an Apostle that can cover you that you are able to continue to do the work of the Lord Jesus Christ. Remember Jesus needed help to carry the cross what you need pastor is help. I pray that god will send you an Apostle to help you fight the good fight in Jesus name.
Aopstle Jacob Ballard III